When people hear the phrase five years, it sounds insignificant—like a brief passage, a few pages easily skimmed. But when those years aren’t marked by seasons or holidays, when they’re counted instead in fluorescent hospital halls, pill organizers, and the sharp, lingering smell of disinfectant that clings to your skin, time behaves differently. It thickens. It settles heavily in your lungs. It turns into a burden you haul forward instead of a space you inhabit.

My name is Marianne Cortez. I’m thirty-two years old, and the woman in my reflection feels like a stranger. Her posture is curved inward, as though she’s constantly bracing herself. Dark circles frame eyes that rest never seems to reach. And my hands—my hands reveal everything. Raw from constant washing. Calloused from lifting a body never meant to be carried alone. Shaped by wheelchair handles and hospital bed rails.

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